wHy i aLwaYs LiKe tO tHinK sO mUcH??

Szcien, what a cowardly person..

Sum1 who dun dare on everything..

Sum1 who like to think too much..

Haiz..

Today..

3 of my ji mui went to camping..

Actually I feel like goin back to visit them..

But when I asked them..

They say they'll be busy..

So.. I think I dun be so busybody ba..

Mayb they dun wan to see me?

Dunno ler..

( Think too much again ) ><

It's raining just now..

Really worried abt them..

Especially ling jie..

Coz I know she's sick..

Dunno she feel better le ma..?

Hmm..

Feel like messaging them..

But I dun dare.. AGAIN !! -_-

Where is my courage?

I scare I'll disturb them..

I scare they're slping..

( Although I knew that they wont slp so early.. ) -_-

I scare they're still busy..

I scare I'll interupt them..

Mayb they din on their phone?

( Giving excuses to myself AGAIN )

Haiz..

Although I know that I'm giving excuses to myself..

Although I know that I shud be more initiative.. just send that msg..

But I still dun dare..

I dunno why I worried abt so many thing..

Why cant I just send that msg?

I really duno..-_-

I want them to know that I worried abt them..

I know if I dun do anything..

They wont know that I'm worrying abt them..

But I still dun dare to do anything..

All I could do is just say it in blog..

Hoping that they'll know when they view my blog sumday..

Hmm..

Stupid rite?

But it's me.. the stupid szcien, sum1 who like to think too much!!

All I hope is..

I could chg myself to be better..

To be more courageous..

To be more initiative..

Not to worry so much..

Lastly..

I hope they'll know what am I thinking..

I hope they'll know that..

They still got this mui worry abt them..

Jiayou!! N face it !! ><

I tot the prob has solved..

N I've a chat with her..( her aka my close fren )

At the beginning..

We chat abt sumthing like usual..

I feel better that time..

Coz we still can chat..

I heard that she's moody..

I tried to make her happy..

Although I'm still worry abt our frenship..

But I dun dare to let any1 know..

I scare it'll affect our frenship again..

I dun wan to make it worse bcoz of my sensitive again..

I very cherish abt this frenship..

But what can I do..

I'm the 1 who ruined it..

She's suppose to angry abt me..

I wont ask for much..

As long as I'm still her fren..

As long as I'm still her mei..

Nothing much n nothing less..

We chat until halfway..

We started to chat back abt this prob again..

Actually I hate to chat abt this prob..

Coz it'll make me bad mood n start to think much again..

But jie wanna talk abt it..

Then I'll hear it n talk abt it..

I said sorry to her..

N she wan compensation from me..

I said.. what do u wan from me?

At the beginning..

It's very normal..

Coz I'm talking abt lame thing n try to jokes..

( I know it's not funny but just trying to make the condition not that cold )

After that..

She told me that things gotta be diff..

I said " then I hope it wont be a big diff "..

She said.. it wont be big..

I REALLY HOPE SO..

Seriously..

When I heard abt that..

I start to feel no energy to type..

My hand start to feel numb..

I dun wan to continue the chat..

But in order to make it like normal..

I tried to chat like normal by saying that I'll try to accept how u gotta treat me..

I know it cant be change much..

It's the fact.. n I deserve it..

I'm afraid..

Really afraid..

I duno how to face her..

Time is passing secs by secs..

N tml..

We'll meet at skul..

Cant stop thinking abt how she gotta treat me..

Looking at the sky..

Sky are turning darker n darker..

It's gotta be tml..

What will really happen??

All the thing cant be reverse..

What can I do now..

Is just FACE IT!!

Szcien..

Jiayou ba !!

Ntg much will be diff.. GAMBATEH!!

( Trying to cheat myself again -_- )

i'M tHe OnE wHo RuiNeD eVerYtHinG ...

Everything had been ruined by me..
Bcoz of my selfishness..

I duno what the hell am i thinking..
Keep thinking the negative side..
Make me keep showing my black face..

I cried..
Make my fren cried also..
I duno I gotta make how many ppl cry in this week..

Things ald happened.. coz by me..
But I duno what to do at last..
I know things cant be back like normal..
I dun even hav the courage to apologize..
Bcoz I noe my apologize.. is worthless..
Even though I apologize for 1000 times..
They also wont hav any feel..

I feel very sorry to all my sisters..
We suppose to sing k happily..
I wasted their money..
I make every1's mood sux..
Just bcoz of my selfishness n my stupid brain!!
I ruined my yeng jie's 1st p trip..
I feel very sorry..

N now..
I only know that I dun hav much fren..
I duno who to talk to when this thing happened!!
I hav no fren except u all..
But I'm making u all not to talk to me..
Saying that u're speechless to me..
Saying that u dun wan to know anything..
My heart really feel pain..
But what can I do?
It's all my fault!!

Now only I know..
How lonely am I without u all..

Jies..
PLEASE DUN LEAVE ME..
I KNEW THAT I'M WRONG..
I DUN EXPECT U ALL WILL FORGIVE ME..
COZ EVEN MYSELF ALSO CANT FORGIVE MYSELF!!

N now..
THE USELESS SZCIEN REALLY DUNO WHAT TO DO T-T

i MaDe mY fReNs cRiED iN fRoNT oF mE ><

Dunno what the dutz happened in this week..
Today is just Wednesday..
Not even 1 week..
I adi made 2 of my frens CRIED !!! -_-

Monday..
I made the 1st person cried..
Early in the morning..
I just come out from the toilet.. T
hen I saw some of my frens sitting at the hall..
After that..
I tot wanna play with my fren..
I just beat her shoulder..
Then she scared until cried.. -_-
I was like.. OMG!! What happened??
Then my other fren told me that..
She was saying that she saw "ghost" when she come to skul..
Then..
I scared her -_-
I dunno what happened n I made my fren cries..
Haiz

Wednesday.. which is today!!
I made 1 of my jie.. CRIED!! T-T
She cant tahan that I dun choi her n dun talk to her at skul..
N showing her that kind of emo face..
She adi feel very san fu this week..
N I still did this kind of thing to her.. -
_-
Seriously..
I also duno why I'm so childish..
Angry her bcoz I'm hap chou (jealous) that she became so close with wawa..
The childish n sensitive me.. think too much again!!
I din hear her explaination then I straightly show her the emo face..
I knew that she'll be very san fu this week..
But I'm still making her burden became heavier n heavier!!
She nid to do her stuff..
She nid to worry abt her thing..
N now.. She nid to worry abt my thing also..

If this thing happened to me, I sure cried long time ago adi..
But jie adi tahan for 3 days..
N at last she cant take it anymore.. n she cried..
I really feel aorry abt that!!
But.. sorry really NO CURE!!
Why am I so childish?
Suddenly angry bcoz of this small little thing..
N never think abt her!!

Making her sad..
Making myself sad also..
Heart really pain like hell!!
Pain until I feel numb adi..
Feel like crying..
But there were no tears coming out from my eyes!!-_-
Think too much really makes me suffer!!!
Think of leaving.. Think of many thing..
All those thing .. really is RUBBISH!!
I duno why my stupid brain will think of that kind of stuff T-T

It's really making me suffer!!!

Now..
I'm here to apologize for all the things that I've done..
Although I know it's too late..
Sorry for frightening u, Ching!!
Sorry for making u to worry abt me, jie!!
Another sorry to wawa.. I know I shudn't hap chou!!

Haiz ...

fEELiNG uSeLeSS aGaiN n aGaiN ...

Do I really looks like an invisible person?
It's like no 1 noticed my present?
Standing there like a "sha gua"..
Sitting there like a bendan..

What also duno, makes me really think that I'm a useless person..
Even the most simple thing.. tie my own hair..
I also got prob with it..
What happened to me?
Do I really hav those disease that I cant do any simple thing by myself?
Like Daniel Radcliffe?
He cant even tie his shoeslace by himself..
But I dun hav that prob.. -_-

As my mom said..
I dun even know how to manage my time..
Yes.. I admit!!
It's SPM year.. n I'm still doin ntg for the exam..
Not doin any preparation.. On9 everyday..
Haiz..
Looking at my fren who's doin their preparation..
I start to cheat myself that SPM still got long time to go..
What the dutz am I doin?
Why cant I just hold the book all the time..
Doin preparation / revision?
Keep cheating myself that.. even I study.. I also duno how to do the question..
What the dutz am I thinking?
I dun even study how I know that I duno how to do it?
As my fren said.. I'm not that kind person who is "stupid"..
Dunno anything abt study..
Sumtimes.. they do call me pro -_-
I duno isit real or just call for fun.. haiz
No matter how.. I agreed with what she said..
I'm not that kind that's "stupid" one..
Why dun I work harder for my future?
Everyday go skul.. doin ntg..
Sit there chit chattng with frens..
Then just end the day like that..
Go skul is not for study.. is to meet frens n chit chat -_-
Learn ntg..
Then what for I go to skul?

I'm once an useful person..
When they nid u, they'll think that u're useful or mayb important..
Where else when another important person appears..
They'll think that u're not important or maybe useful ANYMORE!!
Duno why these days.. I got this kind of feel..
I feel insecure.. when another person start to stick my fren..
N they became very close..
"1 person cant concentrate on 2 sides"..
I totally agree with it!!
Mayb u can but u cant make both sides perfect..
I really feel very insecure..
When u're not replying my msg..
When u're not playing with me like usual..
When u're not sitting with me during tuition..
When both of u were talking abt sumthing that I dun understand..
Sitting there.. hearing what u 2 say..
Dun understand but dun dare to ask..
Just using my logic to combine what I heard as a story?
Haiz..
I was thinking.. Did i do anything wrong to u?
So that u treat me with that way?
I duno.. mayb I just "hap chou" (jealous) ?
Or mayb too sensitive.. think too much again?
Mayb I shud let 2 of u to stick together n I just leave quietly?
Just be back the lonely gal?
Feeling useless..
I cant even grab u when the other person appeared..
Just think of wanna leave quietly..
What the dutz am I thinking again? -_-

Feeling useless that I cant even help when my fren ask for my help..
Just trying to run away from it..
Giving excuses that I duno..
U're sick but I still cant do anything..
U're asking for my help n I played emo..
Seriously.. when I was looking at the script.. I really duno what to do..
I just know how to say sorry..
N not contributing anything..
Sorry, sorry n sorry.. -_-
Sorry NO CURE!!

Feeling useless that making my sis to worry abt me..
Duno what happened to myself..
I'll emo easily..
Just emo bcoz of a small little thing..
( o.O.. so small gas )
Making them to worry abt me..
I really feel sorry..
( Sorry AGAIN?! )
Mayb too sensitive really makes me feel bad..
Think too much just making me to emo / bad mood!!

Sumtimes really think that I'm a busybody..
Like everything also related to me..
Mayb I shud just sit there n do ntg?
But I scared u'll say that I dun care abt u..
Haiz..

Feel like changing my bad attitude for being too sensitive..
But duno why..
I CANT CHANGE IT!!
I cant even change my stupid bad attitude..
USELESS T_T

I duno why this kind of useless brain..
Still wanna think so much..
Haiz..

wHy aM i sO bAD? -_-

Haiz..

I really dunno what happened to myself ler..

Really abit sot sot jor..

Not only emo easily..

Summore easily say wrong thing..

Then make jie angry.. haiz..

U know.. I'm just joking..

But I din know that u'll be angry..

So.. I'll try my best to control myself from saying wrong thing..

Coz I really dun wan jie / frens to angry me..

I'm sorry if I really hurt u..

U know.. I doesn't mean that rite? ><

Just joking with that..

I'm not saying that with purpose..

I m not mean to hurt u.. T-T

SORRY !!!

wHaT hAppEneD tO mE ? T-T

This is another post that I typing with my tears -_-
I duno what've happened to myself..
Feeling emo?

Duno why these days..
I'll emo easily..
I cant even control myself.. even myself also duno what happened..
Some small thing happened, then I'll emo..
I dun wan to be like that..
BUT I CANT CONTROL!!
After some times.. then I'll feel better..
My fren asked me why.. but I duno.. how am I goin to tell u?
N u showed me that face..
Then tell me that.. that's how u looks just now..
Do u know how sad am i?
U're showing me that kind of face.. n dun wan to choi me..
I know it's my fault for showing u that face n not telling u the reason why I emo..
Actually..
Not I dun wan to tell..
EVEN MYSELF ALSO DUNNO WHY..

Today..
I feel like being abandoned..
U all were talking abt ur scout's stuff..
I feel sien n no 1 care abt me..

After that..
We go recess together..
We're late for the recess..
So we cant finish the food..
But the prefect are calling us to go back adi..
I tot wanna wait for u..
Whose knows.. that stupid prefect scolded me..
Seriously.. I REALLY BU SHUANG!!!
N I dun like the feel for being scolded by ppl..
So my face black adi..
N u asked me why..
I dun wan to tell u..
I dunno how to tell u..
N u said ok fine.. then I dun wan to care u adi..
Do u know that I nearly cry?
I'm just trying to tahan my tears from coming out from my eyes..
So I just walk to the History Room..

After a while..
I feel better adi..
I tried to talk to u..
N u're like dun wan to choi me..
It hurts me!!
Then I tried to call u jie like usual..
N u dun wan to choi me also.. T-T

After skul that time..
I asked u that.. Jie.. what time isit?
N u replied me!!
I was so happy..
Coz u replied me when i called u jie..
Then I said "Yay!! Lastly u replied me when I called u jie" !!!
Then u're like push me away n said "sifat guai"..
Do u know that it really hurt me very much?

Haiz..
I really dunno why I feel emo n sad again..
Mayb I'm too sensitive ba..
I'll try to control myself..
So that I wont be emo easily..

Lastly..
Jie.. pls dun mm choi me.. T-T
I noe u care abt me..
I really appreciate it..
It just I duno how to tell u why I'm emo..
Pls dun angry with me T-T
PLS DUN ABANDON ME THIS MUI T-T

tHiNGs aRe mOrE cOmpLiCaTeD tHaN wHaT i ThOuGhT ..

At last..

The bloody valentines has over!!

But there're sumthing that's haven solve yet..

4 jie still angry with us..

Haiz..

This week..

We're having Intervensi test..

But I dun even study during weekends..

Busy celebrating with my "happy" valentines ><

Seriously..

I was very scare when I reached the skul..

I scare 4 jie really dun wan choi us ald..

But when 4th jie reach the skul..

She come n find us at the toilet..

( err.. we like to go to the toilet after reaching the skul >< )

Then arh..

She hugged 2 jie n say sorry to her..

N I just pretend like ntg happened on last friday..

N say .. why u hug her but din hug me? lol ><

Mayb I'm stupid or too "dan shun" ?

I tot this thing can be solve like this..

But..

I'm afraid not..

I feel some weird aura between us..

4 jie is like goin back to her 5 P gang jor..

She dun even join us to study/chat in the morning..

Haiz.. I dun wan T_T

Why will it became like this T_T

I dun wan it to be lesser n lesser..

I really too stupid n " dan shun " jor !!!

Things are more complicated than what I thought T-T

Looking at all my jie..some of them were moody.. myself also moody..

Making them worry abt me..

Haiz.. sorry!!

My heart really feel pain..

How can it became like this?

WHY CANT WE JUST TOLERATE WITH EACH OTHER?

Noob, pLs DuN aCT pRO !!!

WaLaO eh..
Dunno why those noob ppl always tot that they're so "PRO"?

Mayb u're.. but ur attitude makes me think that u're NOOB!!

This is a post abt MapleStory ><

If u din play on9 game.. sure u dun get it..

After I finished celebrate my valentines with my ji mui (sisters)..

I back to home n play Maple with my 3 jie..
We played a party quest in order to lvl fast..

Who knows...

We met that kind of NOOBs!!

During the party quest..
My attack was very sux..
N the noob ask me to help..
Coz I'm the leader..

Summore say those stupid thing n zha me..
OK.. FINE!!
I HELP!!
Jie saw that.. she also bu shuang ald..
She ask me to leave..
But I said.. wateva la.. dun care.. be patient!!

The 2nd party quest..
More worse..

The noob got jackpot.. which is hav to collect many coupon..

( we collect coupon in order to pass that stage )

She got jackpot.. 35 coupons..

So I've to chg leader with her..

( leader no nid to do the quest )

N try my luck to get a nicer question..

( the npc will ask us a question.. the answer will be the number of coupon that we've to collect )

So then, I changed leader with her..

I let her to be the leader n I do the quest for her..

Since my atk was low..

N since she's the leader now..

SHE SUPPOSE TO COME N HELP ME!! rite?

BUT SHE DIDN'T!!!

What the dutz..

She really drive me MAD!!

She's the 1 who said leader hav to help the members..

N now I'm helping her to do the quest..

SHE DUN EVEN HELP!!

OK FINE!!

I do it alone, with my jie's help, I done the quest for her..

N she dun even say thx..

Like I'm suppose to do the bloody quest for her..

Until the last stage..

We've to kill boss..

Since she said she's so PRO..

Then HELP LARH!!

Why dun u help?

Sitting there like kayu..

At last..

I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!

I leave the party, although the quest haven done!! ><

After that..

I joined the other party..

That leader noob also..

If there's other ppl, I think I would party them n be the leader..

But no ppl.. so being forced to join his party la..

At the beginning..

I tot this party is quite ok de..

Until the last stage..

We wasted our potion to kill the boss..

N we got the pass to complete that stage..

But somebody dced..

I dunno what happened to the leader..

He didn't complete that stage n get the pass back to the city..

I asked him.. " leader, u wanna smug the pass? "

He said he dunno..

Then I asked him " then why dun u complete the quest? "

He was like very blur.. -_-

I was like OMG..

I scold WTF then I leave the pt..

( I dun scold rude word in front of my jie, but I really MAD >< )

Jie know that I'm already MAD..

Keep calling me to calm down ><

Haiz..

Today's mood really not very good..

What a "happy" valentines -_-

~ wHaT a "hAppY" vALeNTiNeS ~

My "happy" valentines..

On the 14th of Feb..
No flower.. no choc.. no teddy bear..

(actually adi know dun hav.. lol )

Early in the morning.. being wake by my 3 jie..
Very tired.. but still wake up to pui her..
We eat breakfast n watch movie..
I watched Wild Child at her house..not bad not bad.. xD

Then we go to cyber cafe..

Coz she wan to play maple with me -_-
Who knows that cyber cacat 1.. cant update patch.. zzz

After that..

We go meet dai gah jie n 2 jie..
Then go sing karaoke together..
All of us were like very moody..
Sing until cry -_-
Then sing until sore throat liao ><

But seriously
Go sing karaoke is quite fun de.. lol
Coz very gam dong when we together sing "shining friends"..
"Sun will shine.. my fren.. dun let u cry, my dear"
Although this song is quite old adi.. but I still feel very happy.. lol
Happy until cry coz too gam dong adi.. i noe i'm cacat ><

Then we go back lo..
We went to pasar malam n 3 jie make me bad mood..
Coz she say i'm tiang lampu -_-
Hmm.. Really abit small gas..
Then my face was really "black" when we eat our "lunch"..

After that..
We walk back to her hse..
She keep ask me what did i wan -_-

I said .. NTG?!

Then auntie send me back to my home..
B4 I go back..
I saw she feel sick of her tummy..
I was like OMG -_-
Haiz.. sick again..

At last..
I receive her msg when I reach home..
She apologize to me..
N of coz I forgive her..
She's my jie ma.. wont angry too long de xD
Summore she's sick.. so kelian.. cant bully her lo..

Then..

Both of us on maple together lo..

Maple..

Make my mood more worse!!!

Dunno what the dutz happened today..

Why my valentines is so dam special leh??

No choc, no flower , no teddy bear.. but got so many TEARS n ANGER?

-_-
Haiz..

Really speechless adi..

mY vALeNTiNe'S eVe ><

It's like long time nvr update my blog adi..

Coz cny ma.. then valentines leh.. exam leh ><

This is the 1st post of this feb..

But I think it was abit late..

Almost March ald ><

This post is sumthing abt my valentine's eve.. ><

This valentine arent's like the valentine that I celebrate b4 this..

( actually I din celebrate valentines for the past year >< )

It's really a special valentines ><

I went out celebrate with my fren..

I went to fren's house to stay overnite..

I tot it would be very happy..

But it's totally diff!!!

Valentine's eve..

My 2 jie suddenly cried during moral class.. n we duno why..

Then after skul, we went to tuition..

4 jie suddenly angry with 2 jie n us.. n we also duno why..

Making 2 jie very sad.. haiz

Went to 3 jie's house for overnite..

She argue with family members.. I really scare..duno what to do..

At nite..

We went to 4 jie's blog ..

At last.. we know why she's angry..

She said we din ask her out during valentines..

N we din pui her to go n watch concert at sungei wang..

Haiz..

U're the 1 who told us that u're busy..

U hav to attend to tuition n got party.. summore got concert..

We tot that u're busy.. so we din ask u out..

N u angry with us..

We really dun know that..

If u think that we're wrong.. I help them to apologize!!

WE'RE SORRY for making u to think of that..

Seriously I dunno what've happened today..

Suddenly cry , suddenly angry , suddenly argue?

This valentine's eve really WEIRD!!

T-T !!! SUAY !!! T-T

Seriously....
2009 is really such a worst year for me..

I duno it's the consequences for not forwarding the msg or what..
Haiz..
1 word.. SUAY!!

It's only the beginning of the year.. January!!
There were ald many things happened to me..
When skul reopen, my class get a "good" teacher as our class teacher..
At last.. the class teacher changed..
I tot it was over.. but there are more thing coming to me..
Parents..
Ban me from many things..
Dun let me to go out so much..
Dun let me to sms so much.. (if not throw my phone -_-)
Frens ..
6 has becomes 5..
( hope wont getting lesser n lesser >< )
I said not to cry for her..
But I still cry.. -_-
Go out with fren..
Being criticize by them..
Make me cry at public.. haiz
Today..
Got insult by my bro..
Cry again..
Duno being hurt for how many times in this month..
UNCOUNTABLE!!

Haiz..
I dun wan to cry anymore!!
But.. I think it's quite hard for me..T-T
Too many things happened to me..
I.. dun wan to be "ham bao"(cry baby) ><
I think I wont cry le ba..
Hope bro wont "chi gek" me again la..haiz

i ... sHuD g0 t0 heLL ...

Haiz..

I keep calling ppl to go to hell..

Actually I m the one who shud go to hell..

Feeling useless..

Making ppl fed up..

N making myself emo..

Feeling so sat bai..
Coz what also duno..
Making the nice outing becomes a sad outing..
Making all ppl worried abt me..
ALL MY FAULT!!! T-T

But..

I m glad to hav all of u as my fren..
Although u all hav made me cry.. but u all got come n sayang me back ><
Especially jojo n xin xin lo..
N also yeng yeng la..of coz =)
( sumtimes I feel that.. it's not bad for being the youngest 1 )

Ling jie..
U hurt me the most la..
But dun nid to feel guilty la..
It's not ur fault..
Seriously I really hurt by ur words la.. ><
But..
U dun nid to blame urself la.. k?
I ald get enuf sorry from u..
N I ald forgive u !!!

At last..
I wanna apologize for making the outing like that..
It's all my fault..
SORRY!!

And..
I wanna thx to all my sister!!
Thx for comforting me when I m sad..
Thx for sending msg to me n asking me whether I m ok anot..
Hmm..
I LOVE YOU!! Muacks~~


Ps: Actually I wanna make this post emo.. but duno why it will ends up like this ><

wHaT d0 U reaLLy waN fR0m us ?

Seriously..

What do u really wan from us?

I really have no idea abt that..

We tried to pull u back to our gang..

But u seems to be getting further n further from us..

We doesn't looks like a gang who hav 6 members..

Actually.. we ald get used to it larh..

We're still living happily although u're not with us..

6 > 5.. isn't a big thing for us..

We ald no feel towards u..

Go n think back what u hav did to us..

Dun just say that we hurt u..

N say until so wai wat.. like we bully u..

N u say u keep quiet it just bcoz u dun wan to argue with us..

Pls STOP making those LAME excuses..

We even have a meeting to talk abt this prob..

Some of them no comment n some of them wan u to quit!!

Me n ling jie is the only ppl who wan u to stay in the gang.. do u know that?

But now.. even me also no feel towards u ald..

U go n tell me that kind of thing.. make my mood terrible..

U hurt me.. but u keep saying that I hurt u..

What the dutz!!!

U think urself is very kelian?

Eh.. pls la.. u chose not to stick with us.. is ur prob..

But pls dun blame us.. it's not our fault!!

U wan to concentrate on ur studies for ur SPM.. then go ahead!!

Dun go n mail us those stupid mail.. saying that u wanna say goodbye with us..

Ok.. FINE!!

Since u say u wanna say goodbye..then we say goodbye to u..

N now u regret.. u even lame until come n tell me that mail contains virus..dun open it..

Since u say u wanna say goodbye then why u come back again?

U ald say til like that in that mail.. n u expect the time will turn back?

U think we can take it as ntg happened b4..

I can tell u that.. WE CANT!!!

I really bu shuang ald.. I even changed my place..

I dun wan to sit with u!!!

U said that I'll find u when there's sumthing happen to me..

Do u know that u also that kind of ppl?

Everytime also find me when u nid notes.. print thing.. n more

If ntg, i msg u, u also wont reply..

That time..

I find u bcoz of I angry of jojo..

Then I accompany u for the whole day..

Then the next day..

We ok back jor.. then I go back to her.. n leave u alone back..

Okie.. I know it's my fault..

But..

Think urself.. it's not only my fault!!!

U're also that kind of person..

That's the only time I did that to u.. only ONCE!!

N u.. everytime also like that..

Dun u think so?

If u wanna blame it on me.. then I hav ntg to say.. speechless..

But.. I'll tell u that.. GO HELL!!

Summore..

Everything u also wanna compare..

Even ur tien tien.. u also wan to compare..

Do u know that, u hav to appreciate for what u have now?

Nvm.. u wont understand what I meant.. -_-

Then now..

U say u wrote a letter to yeng saying that the causes of our arguements..

She let us to see the letter..

U hurt all of us.. especially jojo..

She cried.. do u know that?

If u bu shuang her, then why still talk to her at skul?

Show it.. dun act.. u this faker!!..

U feel happy when making us cry, emo n sad?!

GO HELL la u!!!

U said u wanna say goodbye with us..

Then now u regret..

N now u write that kind of letter.. n hurt all of us..

WHAT DO U WAN GEH?!! HAR?!

U think we're ur puppy ar?

U wan us to go away then we go away then we go away..

U wan us back then we'll come back to u??

Wait long la u.. man man dang!!!

U think u can control what're we thinking ar?like ur puppet ar?

U think we'll have the same thought as u arh?

Chi shin one.. I DUN WAN ARH!!

So dub la u..

U think this prob can solve so easily?

(tell the prob then cry cry..the prob solve?)

I really kagum u'll think like that..

Let me tell u..

No matter what u did to us.. we also no feel ald..

U hurt us very much..

Even though I said I dun wan to cry for u.. but I also cry ald..

We summore stupid until go n ask u whether wan go out with us anot.. haha

REALLY REGRET FOR THAT!!!

So..

Dun waste ur time bahz..

Continue on ur stupid SPM bahz..

Dun come n fan us..

5 of us will live happily without u..

PS: I'm too angry when I wrote this post.. so keep scolding rude words.. Paiseh ><

ArGh~~!!! s0 bUsY !!!

WaLaO~

So busy these days..

Everyday also not enuf slp ><

Gotta sick soon.. T-T

Almost everyday reach hse at 7pm.. OMG!!!

After skul then gotta go for tuition..

Today nearly slp in the tuition class..

Luckily got fren.. if not sure fall asleep ler~~

Accounts > Physic > Add maths..

I'm wondering how can I suffer it ><

0H my g0Sh!!

I hav to be like that almost everyday in this year..

Hope I can get use to it ASAP larh!! -_-

Haiz..

Stupid SPM.. ruined my life!!!

I HATE SPM !!! lol ><

huRRaY!! laStLy 0uR cLaSS tEacHer cHaNGeD~~

Hurray!!
What a big big news for us!!
UR CLASS TEACHER CHANGED!!
YeaH!!!
So happie!!!

But..
There's another worst teacher come n becomes our class teacher..-_-

She's our physic teacher since form 4..

She sux de!!!

She dun even know how to speak basic english..-_-

Physic hav to be teach by using english eh..

Haiz..

This year she became our physic teacher again.. n now..CLASS TEACHER!!

Luckily she went to bersalin ald.. if not.. we sure die > <

But I think it's better than the previous class teacher ba..
At least we dun nid to be like primary skul student..sit according to the name list..

At least we dun nid to rush our english oral.. lol

That day..

The other english teacher came in to our class..

She said.. we're not doin individual oral in form 5..

OMG..

That stupid class teacher wan us to do indivually..

Luckily I havent done yet..> <

He really got abit sot sot dei 1.. like that play us..

N now.. HE GONE!!!

YEAH YEAH YEAH ~~!!!

PS: Actually my previous class teacher is a very good teacher but he's too strict ald?Haha.. no comment ><

~ OmG!! wHaT a luCKY 2009 ~

It's really a super "lucky" 2009 for miie!!

Bad luck starts to come to miie when step into year 2009 -_-

I went to fren's he during the new year.. having a new year party with them..

We play games n barbeque..

Once it step into year 2009..

I start to lose when I play games with them.. OMG!!

We have to roll on the floor if we lose the game..

Who knows..it was me -_-

I lose for 2 times.. I have to roll on the floor!!! T-T

Haiz..

So lucky weyh ><

When I walk on the road.. I nearly pokai -_-

Then at skul.. we got such a "good" teacher as our class teacher..

Summore.. every morning I hav to act like a tortoise..

Gotta hide my hair inside the collar.. -_-

But now really gotta tie ald..><

Coz goin to kena warning letter soon..zzz

Haiz..

Still got alot of thing la..

Many til I also forget ald -_-

Then I think for very long..

Lastly I know why I'll becomes so "lucky"..

I rmb I received my fren's msg when I was in Taiwan -_-

Kena curse..

(if I din forward the msg to 3 ppl in 20 mins.. 2009 will be my worst year)

Zzz..

I was in Taiwan.. how am I goin to to forward it? -_-

Haiz..suay =(

So..

Kesian me la.. T-T

I just hope that I wont be so suay until the end of this year.. it's SPM!!! ><

PS : Try to believe those msg.. sumtimes it may come true ><

hAiz.. b0RiNG sKuL liFe sTaRteD ><

It's like abit late for updating this post..

This is a post abt my 1st day of skul in this year..

Actually suppose to post it on that day but too busy ><

Paiseh paiseh !!

Today is the 1st day of skul..

WaLaO..so sien!!

I reached the skul..dam early..

1st time reached the skul for so early..

Then..waiting for sum1 to help me to cut my nails.. xD

Who knows..she came late.. she shud be the 1st person among us who reached the skul ><

~Assembly~

Haiz..hear those teacher to talk abt the rules lo..sienz.

At last the assembly ends..

Hoping a nice class teacher will be selected to our class..

Who knows..the skul really pro..

Find a naughty teacher to be our class teacher..

Dammit!!!

~Class~

Very funny..there are two 5 Dinamik in our skul -_-

Luckily we went into the right class..

Then we find a nice place..sit under the fan eh ><

Who knows..the teacher came in..call all of us to stand up..

He wan us to sit according to our name list..

What the dutz dutz dutz!!!

He tot we're primary skul student?

Excuse me..

If i'm still in form one or two..I think i'll folo what u said..

But..

I'M NOW IN FORM 5!!!

The other class also din sit according to name..why our class hav to be like that??

DAMMIT!!!!

Kesian me only lo..

Me n my ji mui (sisters) sit till so dam far..

They sit on the 1st roll..I sit on the 3rd roll..-_-

How to chit chat??

Really no eye see..

I think of wanna change place..

But then other ppl also din change..oni i change meh?

Haiz..

Got ppl ask th teacher whether we can change our seat..

Then the teacher is super LAME!!

He answered : U can change ur seat as long as u stay in the same place..

LAME!!!

~Election~

Hmm..

I think it's the time I laugh the most in skul today..

I tot wanna choose my ji mui to be the class monitor geh..

But she dun wan..><

N she say she wanna make the other girl to becomes the monitor..

Then we all accompany her lo..all vote for that girl xD

~Recess~

Go meet my ji mui that's from other class lo..

Then saw new student..a guy xD

Hmm..

Quite tall, fair skin..summore flat english geh..n i heard they say he's quite rich..

WalaO..LOL

Then go eat eat lo..

Chat chat abt the tuition thingy lo..

~Back to class~

Hmm..

Moral class..then we started to change place..><

Then chit chat lo..

After that.. ntg special adi la..

Attend to the class.. then go back ..bye bye xD

Haiz..

I really duno how am I goin to suffer in this year..

My SPM year.. my last year in high skul~~

^^ wHaT a hAppY hAppY nEw yEaR ^^

Happy New Year every1 =)

It's 2009 lo..lol

How did u all celebrate ur new year?

Mine..really FUN..SUPER FUN!!

Hmm..

It's the 1st time I din celebrate it with my family members..

It's the 1st time I celebrate it with my ji mui (sister) ^^

It's the 1st time I being throw into the swimming pool ><

Although it's scary but it's quite fun geh..hehe
It's the 1st time I stay in the pool for so long..

I stayed in the pool for 1 year!!

From 31st Dec 2008 ~ 1st Jan 2009 xD

It's the 1st time I saw so many firecracker..

There are so many firecracker around us..

I think I saw all the firecrackers in the city..hmm

It's the 1st time I roll on the floor !! ><

Why m I so bad luck in the new year?!

I lose in the game..n I hav to roll on the floor..-_-

It's so memalukan!!!

Luckily only a few of u saw that..nvm ba..

But I really cant forget that sum1 keep laughing at me!!><

It's also the 1st time I chat until fall asleep..

Sry arh..yeng jie ><

I really tired jor =(

WaLaO..

I gave so many of my 1st time to them ><

I rmb..I m still emo b4 that..

Luckily I hav all of u..

Making me happy..

Making me hav a happy new year..

I really hope I can celebrate every of my new year with all of u..

Although this year, xuan is not with us..=(

To all my ji mui:
Thx alot oh..
I really appreciate it..
Love u all very much..
Love 6 sTicKy hOneY <3