Jiayou!! N face it !! ><

I tot the prob has solved..

N I've a chat with her..( her aka my close fren )

At the beginning..

We chat abt sumthing like usual..

I feel better that time..

Coz we still can chat..

I heard that she's moody..

I tried to make her happy..

Although I'm still worry abt our frenship..

But I dun dare to let any1 know..

I scare it'll affect our frenship again..

I dun wan to make it worse bcoz of my sensitive again..

I very cherish abt this frenship..

But what can I do..

I'm the 1 who ruined it..

She's suppose to angry abt me..

I wont ask for much..

As long as I'm still her fren..

As long as I'm still her mei..

Nothing much n nothing less..

We chat until halfway..

We started to chat back abt this prob again..

Actually I hate to chat abt this prob..

Coz it'll make me bad mood n start to think much again..

But jie wanna talk abt it..

Then I'll hear it n talk abt it..

I said sorry to her..

N she wan compensation from me..

I said.. what do u wan from me?

At the beginning..

It's very normal..

Coz I'm talking abt lame thing n try to jokes..

( I know it's not funny but just trying to make the condition not that cold )

After that..

She told me that things gotta be diff..

I said " then I hope it wont be a big diff "..

She said.. it wont be big..

I REALLY HOPE SO..

Seriously..

When I heard abt that..

I start to feel no energy to type..

My hand start to feel numb..

I dun wan to continue the chat..

But in order to make it like normal..

I tried to chat like normal by saying that I'll try to accept how u gotta treat me..

I know it cant be change much..

It's the fact.. n I deserve it..

I'm afraid..

Really afraid..

I duno how to face her..

Time is passing secs by secs..

N tml..

We'll meet at skul..

Cant stop thinking abt how she gotta treat me..

Looking at the sky..

Sky are turning darker n darker..

It's gotta be tml..

What will really happen??

All the thing cant be reverse..

What can I do now..

Is just FACE IT!!

Szcien..

Jiayou ba !!

Ntg much will be diff.. GAMBATEH!!

( Trying to cheat myself again -_- )